a seam away from breaking

i can’t seem to understand certain people in my life… whether close or casual acquaintances. I seem so easily taken advantage of. Is it wrong being soft hearted…I can’t change the way I am. I get angry at myself for being that way many times recently. The betrayal and hurt from other people…just goes to show a person like me should trust noone but myself. And to the people who have striked me off so easily or just plain forget that i was there for you once…..thank you for making my life less of a living hell. really. don’t expect to be there for you guys anymore. I’m gone.

moments forever faded will burn you tonight

still wishing?

we dont wish for the easy stuff
we wish for big things
things that are ambitious
out of reach
we wish because we need help
and we’re scared
and we know we may be asking too much
we still wish though
that nothing changes
because
sometimes
they come true

shortlived

you know how i love surprises. and to finally see your face, today. you have no idea how happy you made me today. But as soon as you were here, you had to leave so quick. I hope you are safe. and i hope you’re happy. Its not the end for sure,  but i still wish you the best.

I got inked today

and i’ve never been this happy.

i swear its funny the first time.

frustration

its not worth my time. if you’re not bothered to put in the effort, so am i. two can play this game, this very wicked game.=)

might be the answer to your question

why does life seem unfair to you?

my answer is: We make it seem life is unfair. If we look at it positively, its the mistakes you made in life that make you who you are today. Prob heard it a million times. but its true. If it wasn’t for the mistakes, we would all have child like minds. never growing and never getting stronger,emotionally, of course. If you live by the motto “things happen for a reason”….you’d know at the end of it..(whatever problems etc.) good things will come your way. It only depends on how long you take to move on from the bad things that are happening or has happened.

Whenever something really really bad has happened,I always thought it was god’s way of giving me a wake up call, telling me that I shouldn’t live my life this way.

I guess its all perception. how we perceive that certain situation its how we’ll move on from there. If only we took things more positively, there would be more good things to look forward to.

hope dangles on a string.

Maybe things are looking up in certain parts of my life. I enjoy what i do now. And I busy myself so much so I don’t have to think of a certain someone. But every moment I get to sit down and think.he’s one person that pops in my mind. I can’t believe that its just so easy for him to just throw me aside. Like a used rag. That’s really how i feel.so easy for him to ignore me, so easy for him to ignore the things he said and did to me.

je t’adore..the two words still stand. they remind me of the days you made me feel so special, the days you were also misleading me. But overall, it was the happiest days of my life, in a very twisted way.

See the months they don’t matter it’s the days I can’t take
When the hours move to minutes and I’m seconds away

Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won’t care
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won’t care
Try to avoid it but there’s not a doubt
And there’s one thing I can do nothing about

such a smiling sweetheart

last night i got a call…and someone sang me this song…really.