Archive for August, 2007

31
Aug
07

letting go of him and mooncakes,painful decisions

i hate painful decisions but in the end, if its gonna be good for me or others then why not??

I realise I can’t be in a relationship where giving my 100% is never enough. Where he always manages

to put in so much more and ends up making me feel worthless. Its not an excuse i swear. And he has someone else

who is head over heels for him. Truth is I shouldn’t have gotten jealous about them cause the relationship between them is

amazing and I had no right acting all childish, posting about them and getting all bitter about it. I’m just sad that we can’t be

that way.I know its gonna be hard trying to let you go, but we know we have to, how long can we hold this out?

You have my blessings, if it means anything.heh.

On a lighter note, okay, maybe not so. Mooncake festival is here, all the delicious mooncakes on sale everywhere.

Making me jealous cause i’m trying not to eat it cause of the “700-800 kcal per mooncake” thing. NO, i ain’t losing weight

Just preventing weight gain ok? No diets. Minimal exercise. Thats the way to go.

There goes my annual routine of savouring Raffles Hotel mooncakes.=/

28
Aug
07

Shaking with anger. I’m not gonna let you fucking morons step all over me.

I’m so fucking pissed that i’m gonna just say it. I don’t give a shit if you feel offended by it.

Cause you superficial,sorry ass bastards deserve it .

All of you who ignore messages and don’t return calls you just throw YOUR fucking PHONES into the bin.

If I asked a question, at least reply me(immediately or hours later). If it was instructions or info that you needed to know, yeah you don’t have to reply cause there is nothing to reply about. BUT if i ask you for let say…hmmm… someone else’s number or if you’re going for WOMAD, cause you said you would go, for sure. REPLY ME!!you don’t leave anyone hanging that is motherfucking RUDE.

And i’m sick of being the ones who make plans. you all go ahead and make plans and just let me know k? If i don’t hear fromyou all for months, I just assume i’m not that significant so i’ll throw you one side as well. Its just makes me sick when you decide that suddenly on that day you have plans with me, you decide not to call me or msg me so we won’t go out that day.

Don’t take my nice-ness for granted cause I can motherfucking screw u over.

23
Aug
07

.Mixtape.

Exams are finally over.=)

5 weeks of holiday baby!!

Ask me the reason why i STILL despise hypocritical people.or rather person.

Anyway, my bro let me listen to this song. And i’m in love with it.

I’m dedicating it to him.=)

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You say hello, inside I’m screaming I love you
You say goodnight, in my mind
I’m sleeping next to you
You drive away from my car crash of a heart
And I don’t know


But you gave me the best mixtape I have
And even all the bad songs ain’t so bad
I just wish there was so much more than that
About me and you


You talk to him, and it burns me like the sun
You talk to her, and you say that you feel like he
‘s the one
I talk to me, but you can’t hear the pain I feel
You don’t know

Cause you gave me the best mixtape I have
And even all the sad songs ain’t so sad
I only wish that there was more than that
About me and you

Oh, don’t turn around and say bye again
Yeah it crushes my head when you call me
Your friend and I’m not the same person
From back in the day in the back of the class
That you thought was gay
No I can’t find the words cause I lost them

The minute they fell out of my mouth
And it’s love and I’m in it,
so give me your lips
And just let me kiss ’em

And let’s get messed up and listen to probably…

The best mixtape I have
And even all the bad songs ain’t so bad
I just wish there was so much more than that
About me and you

23
Aug
07

How Much Are You Willing To Change For The Ones You Love?

My dear readers,

how much are you willing to change for the ones you love?

You can’t deny change. Its all around us. We adjust to it, we hate it, we do it willingly or unwillingly.

Then comes love. When they say people do anything for love..where do you draw the line then?

Dressing.Personality.Looks. The three common things we wanna change in our partners.

We don’t feel it. but sometimes we unconsciously change the ones we love into something we want/dream.

I admit I did it.

But when is that change too much?

I’ve watched friends become a totally different people when they are attached. Yes, accept changes. But not

to the point where i don’t recognise you anymore. You’re a totally different person, whether its for good or for bad.

When your boyfriend/girlfriend to tell you to change your hairstyle, change the way you dress, change the way you do things, be more open, lose that inch of fat,be more caring, don’t shout, don’t smoke, don’t go out with friends till late, do you really listen to what he/she says?

If change has become a one-sided constant and drastic thing in your relationship, in terms of the three things i said, i’m sorry for you. Either you’re controlling his/her life or he/she is controlling your life.

I think people should learn how to draw the line.

People won’t recognise you anymore once it gets out of hand.

17
Aug
07

He’s My Icing On My Cake.

When you have friends or people who actually care about your birthday it makes you so loved.

I had a mini celebration today.I must say they did really surprise me.Especially *him with his back and forth about  not coming back and stuff.I love surprises.=)

I’ve gotten quite a lot of presents this year from people I don’t expect to get presents from. Esp. my dad, a exclusive present once in every 5 years. guess what he got me….N73 M.E. phone.

Sarah’s taking me to Villa Bali, never been there.can’t wait.

Exams have been a killer!! 2more to go!

06
Aug
07

Smother me.

the sweetest song i’ve heard in weeks.Thanks love.=)

Let me be the one who calls you baby
All the time

Surely you can take some comfort
Knowing that you’re mine

Just hold me tight, lay by my side
and let me be the one who calls you
Baby all the time

I found my place in the world
Could stare at your face for the rest of
my days

Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me
Warm and alive I’m all over you
would you smother me?

Let me be the one who never leaves
You all alone

I hold my breath and lose the feeling
That I’m on my own
Hold me too tight stay by my side
and let me be the one who calls you
Baby all the time

I found my place in the world
Could stare at your face for the rest of
my days
Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me
Warm and alive I’m all over you
would you smother me?

When I’m alone time goes so slow
I need you here with me
and how my mistakes have made
Your heart break
Still I need you here with me
Baby I’m here

Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me
Warm and alive I’m all over you
would you smother me?

Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me
Warm and alive I’m all over you
would you smother me?

Let me be the one who calls you baby
All the time


03
Aug
07

Protected: finally.his name.thanks to his best friend(who said it a lil too late) i made a blunder out myself in front of friends for mentioning the wrong name.what a moron,anyway…

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