Archive for September, 2007

30
Sep
07

I’m living my bohemian dreams.

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me and azlin after band practice=)

I really can’t describe last night, I’ve never been more happy…..=)

Mr Brightside and I went to bernie’s just for fun….heh. Got unnecessary glares from people as usual.

Mr Timothy came, later to annoy the hell out of me. And then mr jeremiah and his gf jamie? came for a short while. Pretty couple, i tell you.

Anyway mr. timothy kept throwing nuts at me, so i started spitting ice at him. By the beach, I nearly fell in into the sea cause *he threatened to push me in once again. And Tim-o was high so he started chasing rats by the beach. Lucky he decided not to drive that night. Anyway his house was nearby so it was alright. Mr Tim-o, i declare you my annoying drinking buddy.

All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I’ve been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don’t mean anything
When you’ve got no one to tell them to
It’s true…I was made for you
I climbed across the mountain tops
Swam all across the ocean blue
I crossed all the lines and I broke all the rules
But baby I broke them all for you
Because even when I was flat broke
You made me feel like a million bucks

You do
I was made for you
You see the smile that’s on my mouth
It’s hiding the words that don’t come out
And all of my friends who think that I’m blessed
They don’t know my head is a mess

No, they don’t know who I really am
And they don’t know what
I’ve been through like you do
And I was made for you…

All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I’ve been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don’t mean anything
When you’ve got no one to tell them to
It’s true…I was made for you

29
Sep
07

I hope you had the time of your life.

I did this in less than 2 hrs. I feel it could be better. But I hope you’ll like it. leave me comments yeah

All the people I love are in this video…

Anyway. This morning, someone decided to join me for a jog. And usually i’ll only jog about 1km(1 and 1/2 rounds around my park) and i’ll brisk walk the other 2km. And today he pushed me to run 1.4km(2 rounds). As in run…and asked me to jog the rest. I couldn’t, but I ran that 1.4km with him..the other 2km I did brisk walking. At the end of it..he said i’m proud of you and he hugged me…oh that fuzzy feeling!! Yeah but i ruined the morning jog/run cause I had a huge breakfast. Carbs!! oh yeah. we spent like 45 minutes dancing to R&B songs in the middle of the park. It was fun except for the glaring from aunties and uncles who were socializing there.

Baby, you have become my addiction, I’m so strung out on you
I can barely move but I like it..

And it’s all because of you

Never get enough,
You’re the sweetest drug

28
Sep
07

Coming to a youtube near you.

My latest and prob last project of the year. Making a lil memory video for all to see.=) stay tuned.

27
Sep
07

Just because.

To that very scandalous relationship,
And do you ever feel like you’re alone?
And do you ever wish you’d be unknown?
I could say that I have..
And do you ever feel things here aren’t right?
And do you ever feel the time slip by?
I can say that I have..

So hear this please
And watch as your heart speeds up endlessly
And look for the stars as the sun goes down
Each breath that you take has a thunderous sound
everything’s magic
Just sit back and hold on, but hold on tight
Prepare for the best and the fastest ride
And reach out your hand, and I’ll make you mine…..everything’s magic

And do you ever lay awake at night?
And do you ever tell yourself don’t try?
Don’t try to let yourself down
And do you ever see yourself in love?
And do you ever take a chance, my love?
Because you know that I will..

To my best friend, you’ve changed. I don’t know you anymore.  Only god knows if you’ll be like this for a very long time. You’ve hurt me and you don’t even know it. I’m worried for you. But I’ll always be there, its been my promise from the beginnning.

26
Sep
07

I’m confused. Its your fault.

I was on my ‘adventurous’ and ‘let’s do it all’ mood yesterday.

Ended up with azlin, regina and me going on the cable car.ended up at sentosa…rode the luge, skyride. Extreme log ride.  Its a new ride.100% recommended.Its way way way way way better than the cinemax and 4d magix. Its called Cineblast. It costs the same as 4d magix but cineblast is way better once again.So we went up to mount faber after that. Walked around. Took pictures (on regina’s blog once again) then headed to raffles city. Guess what we did?? Yes, queue for donuts. I didn’t buy any..seriously, enough with the craze…its just making people set up more donuts shop..just to close down in years to come, leaving a less than a handful left(bubble tea?, papa roti?).

Anyway, today I went to JB with my mum, *him and me. Decided to take a cab there cause his precious lexus might get robbed.It was so much fun cause you get to feel like a rich kid, my mum didn’t think twice about buying stuff for me and she actually guessed the things my bro would like and just bought it for him. So there was this shop at city square that sold quite cool punk, emo, metal stuff…and the guy in there was super cute. And i told *him, he took the liberty of talking to him on my behalf on purpose.asshole. And in that shop, he stole my hairclip to clip his hair, and wore a polka dotted men’s cardigan, i swear i wanted to slap him.  I’m so in love with the cardigan’s there. I’ll be back, i tell you.

This time i’m confused and its your fault.

 (You want to)make a memory
Hello again, it’s you and me
Kinda always like it used to be

Sippin’ wine, killing time
Trying to solve life’s mysteries.
How’s your life, it’s been a while
God it’s good to see you smile

I see you reaching for your keys
Looking for a reason not to leave.

If you don’t know if you should stay
If you don’t say what’s on your mind
Baby just, breathe there’s no where else tonight we should be
You wanna make a memory.

I dug up this old photograph
Look at all that hair we had
It’s bittersweet to hear you laugh
Your phone is ringing, I don’t wanna ask.

If you go now, I’ll understand
If you stay, hey, I got a plan

You wanna make a memory
You wanna steal a piece of time
You could sing a melody to me
And I could write a couple lines
You wanna make a memory.

If you don�t know if you should stay
And you don�t say what�s on your mind
Baby just, breathe there�s no where else tonight we should be-
You wanna make a memory
You wanna steal a piece of time
You could sing a melody to me
And I could write a couple lines
You wanna make a memory
You wanna make a memory

25
Sep
07

Just know I’ll be there.

I remember listening to this song when I still had my old blog.

I still love this song.

I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared

After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I’m done here

So if you’re asking me
I want you to know

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

And don’t resent me
And when you’re feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]

Don’t be afraid
I’ve taken my beating
I’ve shared what I made

I’m strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I’ve never been perfect
But neither have you

So if you’re asking me
I want you to know

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don’t resent me
And when you’re feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You’ve learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can’t be who you are

[Chorus]

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You’ve learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can’t be who you are
I can’t be who you are

24
Sep
07

My weekend in a nutshell….NOT!

If friday is considered a weekend, then here I go telling you what a bi-polar weekend I had on a day-to-day basis.

Friday:My interview with Ms Joanne from the campaign for real beauty thing. Nice people I tell you. Then it was band, where I totally drew the line, cause I was fed up.More later.

Saturday:Band practice at my house.or rather the park. Then Aresha, Amit, Aruna, Ashwin and me headed to the zoo.Loads of fun I tell you. Except for the fact that this stupid chinese couple over-reacted thinking that Ashwin wanted to attack them when actually he was agitated and decided to run off. The most stupid question they asked was, are you from India? Didn’t understand what did that have to do with anything. But we brought him home and went out again.We ended up at Siglap to borrow dvds and buy some food. And then to East Coast to eat dinner. And then we ended up at Night Safari. Which was fun cause we were laughing at every little thing. We got off the tram and went for the leopard trail and couldn’t see much but we were fascinated by the automated voice info board which had four different voices for the four different language. So we started pressing it…and one of them was about the clouded tiger. In malay, tiger is harimau. And we pressed the thing it went”Harimau ini………” then we pressed it over and over and it become our song “harimau ini harimau ini, harimau ini….” We did that with all the different boards all over the trail..It was really damn fun.

So on the way back, we sat on the tram again, the tour guide went ” on your right, you’re looking at Barking Deer sitting on the grass.It is called the barking deer because it barks exactly like a dog” you know how dogs go ” woof, woof or ruff ruff” or whatever. Some lady way behind us went “Bark bark (in a way a dog would sound)” We were roaring with laughter all the way. no dog goes bark bark. Anyway, we ended up back at her house watching dvds all night.

Sunday: The soka performance.I started the day damn early. did my “cornrows”. And when I headed back at about 10am it rained.And i realised that none of the instruments were wrapped. My dad kind of woke up late. I was still a mess. I was stunned for awhile cause I didn’t know where to start. Thank god azlin came and then halimah came. So they got cracking on the instruments while I got ready. I was so flustered carrying the instruments and was getting calls after calls one by one from band mates who were at soka, I wanted to scream, really. By the time I got to soka I was fine, I guess. I just did whatever I had to do. Realised I didn’t eat so I felt faint-ish just before our final rehearsal.But I got thru it.The whole performance in fact. Oh yeah, I got an eye candy there. His name is Alvin. god damn cute!! Anyway the turnout was great, the 2 nannies for our group were extremely wonderful.They are so caring. And the performance was a total hype.

My band had a real serious talk after that.It was basically verbal vomit. We all had something to say and I admit I had flaws when contributing to the band but in the end I really couldn’t see them eye-to-eye. I knew it was only the beginning for the band, but it started out all wrongly and its a mess now. My regret was initiating it cause I was bearing the whole brunt of the band on my shoulders which made me frustrated and made me doubt them.

Plus almost all came from the same batch and they are more closely knittedThe whole problem is by giving up my place and transport for the band was basically convenience, knowing that the instruments were in safe hands and it would be convenient to transport it from school and back to school. The next thing was I hated the attitude of the band mates cause it was becoming more and more self centered the more I looked at them..

By the way, Cindy’s a bitch, she’s not even in the band and she wants to have her say. And it was all about her being hungry. just fuck off. You were so fucking lucky, I didn’t scream at you.

It was better that me,sha, azlin and halimah left.Reason being sha and azlin need someone to guide them with basics and I don’t think I’m that great to lead them. And I know being in the band can be stressful and I feel for them. As for Halimah, she was basically out casted back in secondary school and for reasons she doesn’t know. And I know what its like to be in a group with one or few people who have grudges against you. You just can’t function. I feel that whatever that was said in secondary school should be left in secondary school. By bringing it into band its just childish, a year on, and you still can’t forgive a friend, it says so much.Even worse, you don’t tell the person what is the whole tiff about.

With that said, its better for us to leave, be in a band with a total fresh start. Knowing we have a place, already have instruments and have a CC to back us up.