24
Feb
08

My ultimate phobia.My final goodbye.

London has been good to me.heh.

Been all over these few days. the highlight was going clubbing friday. The 5 ladies headed to Yates at Leicester Square. Danced…didn’ really drink. Su had some Chinese guy who kept dancing funny behind her. And my 2 cousins both dressed in boobtubes had numerous guys coming up to them who wanted to grind them.heh. My ultimate phobia were black guys.I’m not racist or anything. But they are scary. I avoided them the whole night. Anyway, Su and me had a shot each at the bar and my cousin told us they were playing the last song for the night. At fucking 1am. They were closing the club.WTF!!

Anyway, slept at 4am that night cause we went to an underage party that played grime music. Kiran got drunk, hugging and high-5-ing everyone. that party sucked i was half-bored.

Got up at 8am….took a train out of london ourselves. at my other aunt’s place now with my lil cousins. Su is doing all the babysitting, my aunt’s at the gym. I don’t want to leave london.=/

I fell in love with the band Secondhand serenade while I was sitting down stoning and Su was doing her cross-stitching.

I called him this morning.Told him I couldn’t do it. He asked me why? I  told him….

‘You broke my heart once, I still took you back. And then you broke it again, I feel like a fool.And now even when we’re left hanging, you are already doubting me.’

He slammed the phone down.

My tears run down like razorblades and no, I’m not the one to blame: it’s you or is it me?
And all the words we never say come out and now we are all ashamed
. And there is no sense
In playing games, when you done all you can do.

But now it’s over, it’s over. Why is it over? We had the chance to make it. Now it’s over,
It’s over. It can’t be over. I wish that I could take it back, but it’s over.

I lose myself in all these fights; I lose my sense of wrong and right. I cry, I cry. I’m
Shaking from the pain that’s in my head
. I just want to crawl into my bed and throw away
The life that I led. But I won’t let it die. But I won’t let it die.

But it’s over, it’s over. Why is it over? We had the chance to make it. Now it’s over,
It’s over. It can’t be over. I wish that I could take it back.

I’m falling apart, I’m falling apart. Don’t say this wont last forever. You’re breaking
My, you’re breaking my heart. Don’t tell that we will never be together. We could be over
And over, we could be forever.

I’m falling apart, I’m falling apart. Don’t say this wont last forever. You’re breaking
My, you’re breaking my heart. Don’t tell that we will never be together. We could be over
And over, we could be forever.

It’s not over. It’s not over, it’s never over, unless you let it take you, it’s not over,
It’s not over, it’s not over, unless you it break you. It’s not over.

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