Archive for April, 2008

29
Apr
08

You’re talking way too much..you’re in my head!

You know how a song creeps in your head and it stays there and it rings over and over in your head. Be it a certain sentence or a verse or the chorus of the song. And you just need to play that song again, like a drug-deprived addict.

This would be the song.

Would you say that it is majorly influenced by Gwen Stefani. Cause i really think so, in terms of music video direction wise.

And this song reminds me of gossip whores and rumour-spreading bitches. And of course the superficial and the backstabbers. It soo reminds of a certain incident that happened last year?? Grudges. They really kill.

29
Apr
08

Protected: Its funny how….this is just infactuation.

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29
Apr
08

To my dearest…

Suee…

your holidays are over and i’m the one sad….haha. Anyway, I enjoyed my holidays with you. All the annoying lil things we do together.Not a single regret.

So I made a compilation/video especially for you. The photos are from the highlight of our holdays.=)

I hope you’ll love it!=)

26
Apr
08

Lies, Deception and Stupidity

In a span on 3 hours. I was faced with all 3 of them.

And the positive side of me is saying all this is happening for a reason

The negative side of me is saying: your life is beginning to screw up once again.

But here is how i’m gonna take it all in.

The lies and the secrecy those two have been keeping is for a reason, i do not know. And if they really thought of me as friends they would tell me what the hell is going on. Guess they are not true friends after all.

The deception, i plan to shut the whole fucking group of “rockstars” ie. the fucking pb band, up with something that percussionistas is currently working hard on.

and stupidity. where the hell do i even start. but fuck it.I wanna watch him fight his way back into my life. not that i’m making his life any harder what-so-ever. but i couldn’t care less about him. so why is he trying so hard to make me care……

at the end of it. you may be thinking….”prim’s evil!”….

think again.

*liar…..it takes one to know one….=)

24
Apr
08

The damn slow comp destroyed my original post!

Oh hell! Angry know!

*thanks for the memories.
21
Apr
08

Remember..!

Friday was kind of a special day for me cause i got “my precious”!! yes. Halimah and I headed to Sim Lim to get my long-awaited camera. Though I was looking for the Sony semi-pro cam, this camera was way better. It took a hell lot of persuasion from the salesman for me to budge. But bargaining from $630 to $500. Way worth it. Felt the pinch once i paid for it.

Then the ex had to ruin the evening by squeezing the last drop of happiness out of me.asshole!

It was kind of made up on Saturday. When my twin, hafi and I went for our secret adventure at East Coast.

What we did, you’ll never want to know.

The highlight was watching Peepshow live at the Ballyhoo album launch over at Arts House. Okay, I kind of exaggerated when i said Sue and I were their biggest fans. Truth is, I love their music. Probably because I can relate to the lyrics. And its a plus that they were friendly enough to come up and thank us for coming. Cause some bands that I’ve seen, could care less.

they’ll be having their Ep launch on the 10th of May(Saturday) at The Chambers, Arts House at 4.30pm. Free admission, do buy their Ep!!!Visit their myspace if you wanna know more about them and stuff.

So earlier I was watching the repeat of Grey’s anatomy and this song came on… and it reminded me how i should just keep moving forward. no matter what people say or do…or how many disappointments i face along the way or how many mistakes i make. Cause its no use sitting down and crying or getting angry at yourself thinking about the “should-haves” and the “if only”.

You must be wondering right now..”when did Prim get so positive?”…

Its because of a certain person, he kind of changed my life…..though he walked away from whatever we had.

*All that I know is I’m breathing now.=)

21
Apr
08

Protected: once again….the fool

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17
Apr
08

To take matters in my hand.

In the plain childishness of love(being caught up with it), I decided to take matters of everything else in my hands.

For once I want to bear the brunt of everything that has been going on. And I’ve decided that I’m gonna be strong about it.And I’m not going to let anything get me down.

Cause for once I want to let go of all the hatred and anger and secrets I’ve kept from people and just keep my mind clear for awhile.

I guess for years now, I’ve been keeping everything in and not telling people how I feel (out of politeness and probably preventing myself from breaking friendships)

My mind wonders back to how it all started.I had no proper friends back in secondary school. It was superficial bullshit day after day. I had to deal with the critisms, the fights, the stares, the horrible pranks everyday. And I wouldn’t blame myself cause I had to admit that, even back then, everything was based on superficiality, you’re not “in”, if you’re not thin. And as a teenager, I guess I was trying to fit “in” and basically finding an identity that suited me perfectly. Through that I made enemies, constantly getting into trouble, getting bullied and in turn, taking that anger to bully people. I was a horrendous mess. Till one day, a big fight, probably still the biggest fight,broke me in every way. At that point of time, I lost my friends, grades were slipping etc. I for once was alone. Till some of my classmates picked me up and till this day i’m grateful.

Mistake #1(personally)

Making my way into nursing. Thinking of what was good for me and not what I wanted. Its true that you can’t get everything you want. But you can work for it, and work hard at it. My passion for music is always there and I would like to achieve something in that or at least contribute to the local scene. But the stigma of it all is that you can’t do much with your music talent here in singapore and it has stuck with me for years but half of me is constantly fighting and telling myself that there is still hope that I can really achieve something. And I wouldn’t say that nursing hasn’t thought me anything, I’ve learn t loads but it can never ever suit my personality. And starting shift work to me is committing social suicide.

Mistake #2

Giving my time and effort into a band for months that went to waste. I’ve been thinking hard about it. The few months that I spent working on a band that had the mentality of a rockstar, drained me so bad. That I always look back in disgust. Cause I build them up, initiated everything, only to have them disrespect my family and be so complacent about everything that happens in the band. And its good that we had a good lashing and trashing out in the end, but I cannot kill the grudge. And now I’m wishing I had used the time to build my current band, Percussionistas. But things happen for a reason and now everything is perfect.

Mistake #3

Family. had I been more proactive, helping my mum out, my mum probably wouldn’t been so bitter. And I’m full of regrets on that part. And I swore to myself that I’d help her in any way possible. And if that means she being relieved that my dad is out of her life I’d do it. I can’t keep fighting for them to be together, its been far too long and far too much damage. And as much I would hate for them to part, I can’t let my brother keep hearing them fight or I can’t let us(my bro and I) take the brunt of it all by taking sides every time they fight. Cause in the end, they should realise that they BOTH have made mistakes whether big or small and it resulting in a very strained, beyond salvageable relationship.

MIstake #4

being a fool in a previous relationship.

Mistake #5

Not starting to save. I’m gonna start saving money for my rainy day. Which could be anytime soon. I’ve cut down a hell lot of taxis. And all that money is going into my untouchable bank from now on.

5 major downfalls….many minor downfalls. But I’m sure as hell loving my life right now.

Cause my achievements outweigh them all.

And the moral of the story, children is that:Things happen for a reason, and its up to you to take it in a positive light or be bitter about it all your life.

I’m only realising this now.Never too late, right?

and to all of you who have been there for me in one way or another. you all are my heroes. even if you were  there only for awhile.

There goes my hero
Watch him as he goes
There goes my hero
He’s ordinary=)

16
Apr
08

Protected: I jinxed it!

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16
Apr
08

Protected: Let me embrace you with this kiss

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