Archive for October, 2008


just let it slip by

i heard you were having problems. If there was a way, I’d make it go away. But you never really gave me a chance to get to know you better. So I left it. But I hated to see you on your moody days, sad days, angry days. And I also hated the fact that you treated me like i’m another face in the crowd when I’ve opened up to you.


now i’m scared to. knowing you’d probably give me another half bothered message.

just know that you have a friend here, alright?

P.S. I’d never treat you that way……


whats wrong with the world?

Its Deepavali tmr. Somehow the excitement of it all is gone. Today, Darsh and Eugenia came over for dinner. along with relatives and my bro’s friends. Now that the parents are gone, and my friends are gone. My bro is having fun drinking away. Yes, drinking. the idiot! heh.

Tmr’s celebration will have me running in all directions in Singapore, trying to pack in as much visitations as I possibly can.

Aside from all that, my prayers go out to Jennifer Hudson in finding her lil bro and her finding the strength to move on as soon as possible…here’s what happened…

“Oscar-winning actress Jennifer Hudson has been devastated by the shooting murders of her mother and brother and the kidnap of her young nephew.

The bodies of Darnell Donnerson, 57, and her son, Jason Hudson, 29, were found at the Donnerson family home in Chicago yesterday.

William Balfour, 27, – the boyfriend of Hudson’s sister Julia – was arrested after a manhunt lasting hours. But he was refusing to co-operate with police, or reveal the whereabouts of seven-year-old Julian King, the son of Julia Hudson, who vanished at the time of the killings.

Neighbours said they heard gunshots at the large white home in the morning but it wasn’t until late afternoon that Julia Hudson discovered the bodies – Ms Donnerson in the living room and Mr Hudson in the bedroom. There was no sign of forced entry.”

“Oscar-winning actress Jennifer Hudson identified the bodies of her mother and brother at the morgue shortly after jetting back to her home town from Florida late Friday, the Chicago Sun-Times said.

Chicago police issued an Amber Alert, or child abduction bulletin, for King on Friday. On Saturday, authorities called in the Federal Bureau of Investigation (FBI) to help with the search in case the boy had been taken over state lines.”



this is it ..i’m falling.

Because life is so unpredictable, it catches you off guard time and time again. But then, if life was so predictable, we would all be so humdrum. In a positive light, its the bad things in life that makes you who you are today, a much stronger and less gullible person, as compared to, when you were a kid. The thing that sucks the most is that, you learn (how to be that person)in a hard and most hurtful way. And in that moment, you just wish you could scream and hope that everything would just disappear.

probably,in that moment, this would be the most appropriate song….

Standing on the edge,
battle in my head,
I’m dying to know
I’m dying to know

If I take this leap,
to fail or succeed,
I’m dying to know
I’m dying to know

This is it I’m shaking.
My body’s aching,
I lose my hold,
I will let go.
This is it, I’m falling.
My wings need to grow.
I lose my hold,
I will let go.

There’s so many roads,
pitfalls filled with doubt.
I’m dying to know,
I’m dying to know.

Grabbing what I need,
Grip until it bleeds.
I’m dying to know,
I’m dying to know.

If I,
If I take this, this leap,
will I be broken?
I’m dying to know

I will let go!



how do you tell someone you like them?


I could hold you for a million years

every word in this song

When the rain is blowing in your face,
and the whole world is on your case,
I could offer you a warm embrace
to make you feel my love.

When the evening shadows and the stars appear,
and there is no one there to dry your tears,
I could hold you for a million years
to make you feel my love.

I know you haven’t made your mind up yet,
but I would never do you wrong.
I’ve known it from the moment that we met,
no doubt in my mind where you belong.

I’d go hungry; I’d go black and blue,
I’d go crawling down the avenue.
No, there’s nothing that I wouldn’t do
to make you feel my love.

The storms are raging on the rolling sea
and on the highway of regret.
Though winds of change are throwing wild and free,
you ain’t seen nothing like me yet.

I could make you happy, make your dreams come true.
Nothing that I wouldn’t do.
Go to the ends of the Earth for you,
to make you feel my love


feel bad with me…

because of work. i’ve been too tired to do anything.

so much so its been taking a toll on my health and social life.

I’ve missed out so much.

And one i felt damn bad for, is missing out on peepshow’s performance on saturday.

i would have gone but i haven’t been online so I didn’t know….

and i would have gone cause its been quite a while since i watched them perform.

and loads more that I feel bad for. I hate this!=(



this is bad. i miss you. more than ever. real…


let me make sense of it all.

from deviantart.

If I could hold this hope inside my hands


baby, it won’t get any easier.

Don’t let me go
I’ll fall apart
Don’t say you won’t follow my heart
I’ve kept this deep inside for far too long (it can’t be wrong!)
Only one life to give
I cross my heart and hope to live
With you my darling here forever more


zoo zoo zoo

Last Friday, we went to the zoo. had loads of fun…the weather was way too hot though. more pictures on my friendster..

October 2008