Archive for December, 2008

27
Dec
08

My little star..

my little bright spark

I miss you

26
Dec
08

broken strings

sorry we had to end it.

Let me hold you
For the last time
It’s the last chance to feel again
But you broke me
Now I can’t feel anything

When I love you,
It’s so untrue
I can’t even convince myself
When I’m speaking,
It’s the voice of someone else

Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it’s not enough to make it all okay

You can’t play on broken strings
You can’t feel anything that your heart don’t want to feel
I can’t tell you something that ain’t real

Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

Oh what are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire
When there’s nothing left to save
It’s like chasing the very last train when it’s too late

Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it’s not enough to make it all okay

You can’t play on broken strings
You can’t feel anything that your heart don’t want to feel
I can’t tell something that ain’t real

Well the truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

But we’re running through the fire
When there’s nothing left to save
It’s like chasing the very last train
When we both know it’s too late (too late)

You can’t play on broken strings
You can’t feel anything that your heart don’t want to feel
I cant tell you something that ain’t real

Well truth hurts,
And lies worse

How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

Let me hold you for the last time
It’s the last chance to feel again

23
Dec
08

the eve of christmas eve

I did this last year september…decided to do it again.

1.I’ve come to realize that- people are too self absorbed

2. I am listening to – Vermillion Part 2

3. I talk – about specific bitches and how everyone’s life is screwed up in a way.

4. I love – people who listen and not believe they are so high up.

5. My best friend – is gone.

6. My Car is- being designed by fabulous car designers.(dream)

7. My love life – an endless pit of problems and drama

8. I hate it when – i’m being ignored

10. Marriage is – diminshing in length.

11. Somewhere, someone is – getting jiggy with it!!

12. I’m always – questioning people’s action

13. I have a secret crush on – a guy from some local band

14. My cell phone – is dying.

15. When I wake up in the morning – I do a cobra pose(yoga) to stretch

16. When I go to bed at night- I dream of fighting with zombies and witches

17. Right now I am stuck – on nothing

18. Babies are – adorable creatures

19. I get on friendster – to look at pictures of self absorbed people(one situation/place-at least more than 5 boring same poses pic)

20. Today I ate- cereal

21. Tonight I will – be sleeping my arse off

22. Tomorrow I will – face the music then enjoy myself

23. I really want to- slap that ******* bitch’s face

24. Someone that will most likely repost this is- a genius

20
Dec
08

it brings tears

Mum’s final message

Dear Natalia,

Thank you for bringing so much joy into our lives. You’ve changed your dad into a much better person. And me into someone less self centered. Maybe God decided that you were not meant to be brought into a world full of hatred.Whatever it is, I still can’t stop blaming myself. Maybe I made you ill. I didn’t get a chance to see you or say goodbye. I feel no closure.But I’m sure I will soon.

I’m half-glad to know you’re in a better place and with god. Noone can ever replace you, Natalia. You’ll always be my little girl.I’ll never forget you and how you’ve changed my life. Though we didn’t get a chance to know each other, I still love you.

Always missed.

Mum.

*in remembrance of natalia

I cherish my loss, a gentle reminder, that life is unkind at the best of times.

17
Dec
08

I got love in my tummy.

“i’m gonna kick his assk”

so poor thing!!

gibberish

the funniest……

“Bloodduh!”

“NOT FUNNY!!”

15
Dec
08

oh no.

its  a crush lah!!!!!!

I wanted to type some long post. But my bro decided to come into the room. Yes, he has shifted the comp into the room. I’m saying goodbye to my beauty sleep.

15
Dec
08

A mum’s message part 2

My dearest Natalia(yes, we’ve named you!)

I’m beginning to notice you’re growing bigger. But not big enough. The doc said you’d be my tiny baby. And I don’t really care. you mean the world to me. And my bad habits are all gone. I can’t wait for May the 28th.

Love,

Mum

(this has no relation to me)

13
Dec
08

I Am

blessed and contented with where I am now

not exactly with what I’m doing.

But still…

I haven’t felt this way in a long time.

=)

09
Dec
08

oh wow.

I don’t wanna be the girl who laughs the loudest
Or the girl who never wants to be alone
I don’t wanna be that call at 4 o’clock in the morning
‘Cause I’m the only one you know in the world that won’t be home

Ahhhh-Ahhh, the sun is blinding
I stayed up again
Oh, I’m finding
That’s not the way I want my story to end

I’m safe up high,
Nothing can touch me
Why do I feel this party’s over?
No pain inside
You’re my protection
But how do I feel this good sober?

I don’t wanna be the girl that has to fill the silence..
The quiet scares me ’cause it screams the truth
Please don’t tell me that we had that conversation
‘Cause I won’t remember, save your breath ’cause what’s the use?

Ahhhh-Ahhh, the night is calling
And it whispers to me softly, “come play”
I am falling
And if I let myself go, I’m the only one to blame

I’m safe up high,
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party’s over?
No pain inside
You’re like perfection
But how do I feel this good sober?

Comin’ down, comin’ down, comin’ down,
Spinnin’ round, spinnin’ round, spinnin’ round
Looking for myself,
Sober
Comin’ down, comin’ down, comin’ down,
Spinnin’ round, spinnin’ round, spinnin’ round
Looking for myself,
Sober

When it’s good, then it’s good
It’s all good ’till it goes bad
‘Till you try to find the you that you once had
I have heard myself cry, never again!
Broken down in agony
Just trying to find a friend
Ohhh

Whoahhh

I’m safe up high,
Nothing can touch me
Why do I feel this party’s over?
Whoahhh
No pain inside
You’re like perfection
But how do I feel this good sober?

Whoahhh

I’m safe up high, nothing can touch me
Why do I feel this party’s over?
Why do I feel this party’s over?
Whoahhh
No pain inside, you’re like perfection
But how do I feel this good sober?
Why do I feel this party’s over?

Will I ever feel this good sober?

08
Dec
08

A Mum’s Message

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My dearest little girl,

Please get well soon. Mum and Dad loves you so much. We just can’t wait for you to be out.

Lots of Love,

Mummy.




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