Archive for January, 2009


just one last time

“I’m here for you” she said
and we can stay for awhile,
my boyfriend’s gone,
we can just pretend.
Lips that need no introduction
Now who’s the greater sin,
Your drab eyes seem to invite
tell me darling… Where do we begin?


it might be too late


maybe because you failed to see something beautiful in front of you.


I “survived”

i’m out of the hospital, finally.

I’m fine.=)

I’d like to thank the people who came to visit me…priya, halimah, hafi, sue, fai, sakina, faz,*him, aruna, mum, dad and grandma

and the messages and phonecalls of concern from the many others.

I’ve never felt so loved before.=)



it sucks how much you didn’t really care from the beginning.pretending to be my friend. played with my feelings. yet, i can’t say goodbye.

How could I ever own whats mine
When youre always taking sides
But you wont take away my pride
No, not this time
Not this time

How did we get here?
When I used to know you so well.
But how did we get here?
Well, I think I know.

The truth is hiding in your eyes
And it’s hanging on your tongue.
Just boiling in my blood.
But you think that I can’t see
What kind of man that you are,
If you’re a man at all.
Well, I will figure this one out
On my own.
(I’m screaming, “I love you so.”)
On my own.
(My thoughts you can’t decode)

There is something I see in you.
It might kill me.
I want it to be true.


He’s just not that into you.

I highly recommend buying the book..”he’s just not that into you”

It kinds of let you know what the guy is thinking.With “in your face” comments. But of course there is the girl’s perspective to that topic as well. But overall, its tells you why guys play games, they’d rather kill themselves or get knocked down by a car than to tell you that he’s not that into you.

And after reading this book, i finally understand why that certain guy from the past acted that way. And how stupid i feel now over how I acted. I’m so much better than him, and I can do so much better than him.=)


what is it like to lose a friend…

its painful. Especially when that friends decides to take his/her own life. I’ve lost 2 already.

Anyway, I found out today, that another friend passed away. But she wasn’t close to me at all. I vaguely remember during my lower secondary school days,we went out and sometimes I did confide in her for silly things. But she was sweet and stuff. Cute in her own way. I guess my other classmates knew her better.way after leaving secondary school. But anyhow, I don’t what happened to her, just knew that she was sick since October.And passed away today.

My heart goes out to her family and friends. I’ll miss her and i’m grateful for everything she did for me, back then.

R.I.P Anna…..


you’re only the feel good drag.

why am i wasting my time thinking about a guy

who knows nothing but to think about himself.

you’re about to become a thing of the past.

It’ll be my pleasure watching your life crumble.

Evil but I don’t really care.

Was this over before
Before it ever began
Your kiss
Your calls
Your crutch
Like the devils got your hand
This was over before
Before it ever began
Your lips
Your lies
Your lust
Like the devils in your hands