Archive for February, 2009





beginning of the end

you’re a prick and i hate you.

i won’t fall for the same shit over and over again.



I mean nothing to you.5 heart-stabbing words that haunt me,even as I sleep. How is it that I give my fucking all to be there for you, but each time you back away. Its amazing how hung up I am, and it won’t go away, you won’t go away. A single move you make, can ruin me for the day. I fake a smile for the cameras around me, cause without your fucking presence I just can’t smile. Please continue to ignore me, you’re very good at that.I’m close to being emotionally dead. No, you’re not to blame. Maybe the whole fucking world has a problem with me and everyday I’m asking god to take me away, from the pain.If I’m gone don’t cry, fake tears is something I’d hate to see.


There’s a message.

You always amaze me
But that’s the past

I kept silent and it rained for days
My insides were drenched

But i guess that’s the part of growing up
I never wanted to learn
And i grew into the man
That you never knew
But i wouldn’t be this way
If it wasn’t for you
A hundred thank you’s
If this is love
Fairy tails never came true

Judies are black in full bloom
And i died in the womb
Take it back, all that’s gone
It’s all still there like you left it
December stayed the same
Nothing ever changed but you
Every dream covered in dents
Love can’t fly tonight
Couples will rest, i’ll be sleepless
So cry yourself to sleep
This is about broken hearts
This is about me
Bending again for nothing
I’d run to you but pain awaits

I’m coming home
But i’ll be late

No deeper than imagination can be
Sight with nothing to see
What’s faith if i can’t believe
It’s everything
A cure, but i make it a disease
God take me because i hate me


its gonna be a hell of a weekend

So much things….so little time.sigh!


Please don’t leave me.

She made a sad song funny that’s why i love her!!!!

I don’t know if I can yell any louder
How many time have I kicked you outta here?
Or said something insulting?
I can be so mean when I wanna be
I am capable of really anything
I can cut you into pieces
But my heart is….broken

Please don’t leave me
Please don’t leave me
I always say how I don’t need you
But it’s always gonna come right back to this
Please, don’t leave me

How did I become so obnoxious?
What is it with you that makes me act like this?
I’ve never been this nasty
Can’t you tell that this is all just a contest?
The one that wins will be the one that hits the hardest
But baby I don’t mean it
I mean it, I promise

Please don’t leave me
Please don’t leave me
I always say how I don’t need you
But it’s always gonna come right back to this
Please, don’t leave me
I forgot to say out loud how beautiful you really are to me
I can’t be without, you’re my perfect little punching bag
And I need you, I’m sorry.

Please, please don’t leave me

Baby please don’t leave me
No, don’t leave me
Please don’t leave me no no no
You say I don’t need you but it’s always gonna come right back,
It’s gonna come right back to this.
Please, don’t leave me.
No, don’t leave me
Please don’t leave me, oh no no no.
I always say how I don’t need you
But it’s always gonna come right back to this

Please don’t leave me
Please don’t leave me


I’ve got you figured out(does that make you feel safe?)

It’s not that I don’t trust you.Well, I just know what you’ve been up to.And well this dial tone is agreeing with everything I’ve had in mind.So as her eyes move past your shoulder and your shades start moving in the same direction.Don’t worry I won’t say a thing.And you can’t blame a girl for stickin’ to what she knows..

If I could get to sleep then,I guess you could stop pretending.Cause if I didn’t think you loved it,well then I wouldn’t play along.You’re down for selling me out while I play dumb,it’s cool cause I let you,thought I’d never catch you,you’d say “we’re only friends.” yeah, real good friends, I bet.

forget your lips,your eyes,forget our one last kiss goodnight.

forget I’ve got you figured out.

February 2009
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